Eddie Ray Aguina Jr. or simply, Bear. 
Things Sure do change real fast. My dog gets treated nicer than I do. Am I even happy anymore? Maybe I’m just over dramatic or maybe its cause I try to be as happy as I can and yet everyone always has such an attitude towards me. I’m lost.
Awww thank you roxy, I thought so too. I’m glad someone agrees with me. I miss you gorgeous!
I miss my little sister. It’s starting to sink in, Saturday is too close. I feel so numb lately, careless. I’ve been mean to everyone, joke around too much. I just don’t know how else to deal with this. All I can think to myself is ‘why’. Never in a million years did I ever think i would lose my little sister. It feels like just yesterday the last time I saw her. Two weeks ago, when I was visiting lompoc and she woke up and came into my room and gave me a long, tight, big hug and just smiled at me and told me she loved me..I never thought that would be the last time I ever got to hug her. The last time I ever got to hold her and smile at her and be nice to her and tell her I love her. Something told me that morning to hug her back, to tell her I love her. And I’m so glad I did. I just hate the feeling of never being able to see her again. When I go home it’s not the same. Seeing baby without her isn’t the same. I can see the pain and hurt in baby’s eyes and it kills me. I only hope baby is okay and doesn’t take it so hard. God I miss my little sisters. Especially Angelina. I would do anything to have her back in my life
I’m really jealous of the person that took my place. The person that makes you happier than I ever could. Of course I could never admit that to you.
You’re my shooting star, don’t fade away.
(Source: lovequotesrus)
lost
This weekend was the worst weekend of my life. I lost the most precious little girl in my life. The most amazing sister I could ever have asked for. Rest in peace Angelina
(Source: capnflummox)
A month ago,
I met the someone really amazing. I spend every moment with him, I wake up to him and fall asleep next to him. and I couldn’t be more happy. Honestly, it feels like I have known him for years. I know it’s cliche, but it’s the truth. I’mcomfortablewith him. Usually it takes me so long to open to anyone, to let them know my deepest secrets, to let them get to know the real me. But with him it’s different. I can tell him anything and I know he won’t judge me. It’s quite amazing. Heunderstandsme. I can be myself with him. He knows i’m weird and he embraces it. I don’t have to be afraid of anything around him. I don’t have to pretend to be someone i’m not, and I think that’s the best part. He let me in his life so fast, he opened up to me, he let me know all his flaws. There are no walls, we aren’t afraid to make a mistake in front of eachother. I know it hasn’t been that long, but why on earth would I let someone so wonderful, so perfect for me, pass me by? So what if I’m falling, I know I should be careful. I know that everything seems perfect at first and only gets rocky towards the end..but this time I feel so sure that it will last. I’ve never had this feeling. This feeling of complete trust with someone, happiness. I’m actually happy. and not just the i smile everyday when I see him happiness, cause I see him everyday. But the type of happiness that only I can feel. Now you have to understand, this month has been the greatest. I’ve basically moved in with him. I have literally spent one day without him since we have met. I know all his friends, and all his friends have bonded with me. I have never been in a relationship where they introduce me to everyone, and basically let me in their lives so quickly. We talk about our future, and include eachother. Who cares if it’s early in the relationship, at least we know what we want, right? I mean how wrong could it be to think so positively about someone you spend everyday with? and honestly I would not mind waking up to him everyday for the rest of my life. Im at a point in my life where I just want to settle down and live my life. And I can tell he’s the same. Ah, now i’m just rambling. I guess i just had to get this off mind. But he truly is amazing, I can’t wait for the months to come with him. I sure do hope this lasts <3
(Source: kwesi-trillz)
